Recently, I ordered a tank top from the amazing and super cool geek fashion website known as Her Universe (run by the talented voice actor behind The Clone Wars’ Ahsoka Tano, Ashley Eckstein, and known especially for their tasteful Star Wars apparel). It was the Rogue Squadron one, a picture of which I have included in this post. It’s terribly light and comfy, by the way, but I didn’t know that for a few weeks after I ordered it, because instead of sending me the Rogue Squadron tank, Her Universe accidentally sent me the Rogue Squadron dress.
In their defense, those two items are similar in theme; it would probably be easy to get them mixed up. But I digress. Anyway, after receiving the wrong order, I left a comment on the Her Universe website, explaining the mix-up. A day or so later, I received a call from a very nice gentleman from Her Universe, who told me that they would send me the tank I had originally ordered, and also that I could keep the dress I had received!
Needless to say, I was thrilled that I was going to be able to keep the dress AND get the top sent to me, as well, with no extra charge beyond what I had paid initially for the top. So when I got home the next day, I opened the package that the dress came in (I had left it in its plastic sleeve, thinking I might have to send it back), tried it on…and it was just the cutest thing ever. Even my mom, who only likes Star Wars and doesn’t love it, thought so. And it was after I tried it on and realized how good it looked on me that I realized something:
I could wear this dress out in public and be totally and completely comfortable in it. I could express one of my interests, nay, MYSELF, and not be constantly worrying if strangers think I look silly or kiddish.
I don’t know about other people (fans or no), but when I go out in public, I tend to think a lot about how I appear in the eyes of others. Does my top match my jeans and my shoes? Is my hair laying just right? What would people think of me, if I wore this particular piece and styled my hair this certain way? These are questions that I tend to ask myself, and even though there are times when they should be asked (I wouldn’t want to walk into a job interview, for example, with my hair disheveled and wearing a color-clashing outfit), I also know that I shouldn’t base what I wear and how I look on what other people might think of me. Of course, I don’t want people to think that I’m “inappropriate,” or something of that nature, but at the end of the day, the way I dress and how I want to represent myself is entirely my decision. And so, as long as my clothes indicate that I am an independent, confident, modest young woman, I’m cool.
But sometimes, I don’t always think in those terms. Instead, I revert back to asking the questions I posed earlier: Does my outfit look good? Does my hair look good? WHAT WILL PEOPLE THINK OF ME?
These questions seem, to me, to indicate a lack of self-confidence. And that brings me to my point, which is that Star Wars, namely this Rogue Squadron dress that I got in the mail “by accident,” is helping to build my self-confidence. Because I feel really cute in this dress, so cute that I don’t care if people think it’s weird that I’m wearing a Star Wars dress, or if people label me as a geek (personally, I think people would say I look cool or adorable, but sometimes it’s hard to fight that nagging little voice in your head that says otherwise). This dress is a bold statement, and I’m okay with that. I’m CONFIDENT wearing this dress. And you know something? Confidence is contagious. It may start with just one piece of clothing, but then it will move on to another, and then another. Suddenly, I could imagine myself feeling good about wearing things that I have rarely been brave enough to wear out in public before (like skirts and dresses, for example; jeans have always been the safest, most comfortable options for me in the past, but in the future, who knows?). And that gives my courage a boost, which in turn gives my whole attitude a boost.
That’s amazing, isn’t it? Who knew that one dress could give birth to so many positive, uplifting thoughts? Forget “I have a bad feeling about this”! Let the good feels linger on!
Have you or anyone else you know ever felt under-confident or embarrassed whilst wearing Star Wars or other fandom-themed clothing? Please, share your thoughts and experiences in the comments below!